I told myself I won't miss you(KENDRA)

[kendra phoebe mason]

[/b] she said a little pleadingly. Whatever this man had over her, it still held and Kendra was half hating it and half loving it.[/ul][/size]

[tucker alexander caw]

Tucker felt the need to turn and pull her close, but she rejected him. He needed to get away, before she did it again. But the thought of holding her was to strong, he could feel the ghost of her lips on his and wanted them there again.

His whole life was going horrible and he wanted, needed something. Needed her. She could reject him, yes but holding her was worth the trouble. Worth the heart break all over again.

He turned,"Kendra." He pulled his arm away, only the grasp hers and step close to her. He bent down kissed her cheek. He wanted to scream,"I can't stand you."

He didn't want to be the one to be rejected. He had to do the rejecting. And that was what he was set on doing. But the feel of her skin turned his words into,"I love you."

[kendra phoebe mason]

[/b] she whispered. God, how she still did. And it was only making her life more complicated. But she loves him..she really does.[/ul][/size]

[tucker alexander caw]

Tucker felt a smile spread across his face, as the words left her mouth. He knew it, but he wasn't sure if this moment would last. He wanted to back away before she got the courage to leave him standing here. Oh how he wanted to be far away from this feeling, but he wanted to bask in it while his chance lasted.

Instead of leaving, like he was so customed to doing he moved his lips from her cheek to her lips and kissed her softly. "Them take me back. I'll never do that to you again."

[kendra phoebe mason]

[/b] she frowned, how did she tell him that she had been trying to move on and was kind of seeing someone already.[/ul][/size]

[tucker alexander caw]

Tucker stiffened, he saw this coming before he left his house in Paris. But still, here he was, waiting to be rejected. He knew he set him self up for such humiliation but he hoped that she would just say yes and go back home with him. Not this.

He backed away,"But what Kendra." He didn't want to hear this, he just wanted to leave. But he couldn't leave without knowing why Kendra didn't want him anymore. Without knowing what he did wrong again. He just wanted her.

[kendra phoebe mason]

[/b] she said softly, wanting to reach out to pull him back close to her "Until you came here to find me, I guess I just had pushed all of those feelings away and they just hit me hard when I saw you again." she told him, swallowing a lump in her throat, as she took a small step towards him.[/ul][/size]

[tucker alexander caw]

Tucker backed up another step as she came closer. He expected this, he knew this would happen. Why did he come? Did he want to feel the same pain he felt when he found out his mother really left him? When he found out he was part muggle.

No, that wasn't it. He refused to think of that memory, those many years of betrayl. "So I guess this is it then? You are leaving me like she did. Huh?" He backed up more and more. No, he would leave before she could, he refused to let her have the final say in anything. It was his job to beat her to the punch. To never feel those horrid feelings ever again. "Fine, but I'm leaving you first."

His voice was only a harsh whisper, how could she do this to him? All he did was love her, that's all he wanted was to be with her. He sighed, he couldn't walk away, he couldn't make his body move. He wanted to turn around, apologize, but no, he couldn't do that either. He could just stand there, glare at the ground and not move, not speak, just feel the pain and the tears that threatened to escape. That he could control, he could control his tears, keep them in until he was alone.

[kendra phoebe mason]

[/b] she said quietly, as her words broke a bit at the end as more tears began to slide their way down her cheeks.[/ul][/size]

[tucker alexander caw]

Tucker turned when he heard her words. When he saw the tears, it warmed him. He didn't want to hurt Kendra, maybe it was why he left her. Maybe he knew, deep down, he just wasn't right for her.

Because here he was hurting her again. He took in a deep breath and stepped towards her again, but stopping before he made it too close. He wanted her to decided if she wanted him. He knew it was wrong to come back, but now it was time to do something right. Let her decide her own life. "I love you too," he said, his voice steady, though his whole body was shaking from the fear of her turning and leaving.

He refused to treat her like the girls he dumped in his past. No, Kendra was different. He loved her, and could finally be a normal human being. Tell her his story. No, he couldn't do that. That would ruin everything. His story would have to be locked up inside him. "Will you come back to me?"

[kendra phoebe mason]

[/b] she admitted.[/ul][/size]

[tucker alexander caw]

Tucker sighed resting his hands on hers. He should of known that sooner of later his happy little bubble would be popped. But he kept his anger in and stayed where he was. No need to fight,"Then I'll stay in London until you know what you want." He kissed her cheek, he really did not want to leave and just wished she say yes. "I'm still sorry for making you choose. Just....remember that I love you." He backed away slightly, not enough to make a big deal or enough that would place his emotions as mad. Just sheltered.

[kendra phoebe mason]

[/b] she said softly, keeping that little smile to her lips "H-have you been to London before? I could show you around." she offered. [/ul][/size]

[tucker alexander caw]

Tucker shook his head, “I can’t say that I have.” He wanted to stay and take her up on the offer, but he wanted to be away from her too. He didn’t need the constant reminder of what he couldn’t have stuck in his face all day. No, he needed a drink and this bar wasn’t going to be good. She would know where to find him. “I can’t do it today,” he said nonchalantly. He wanted to do it though, he wanted to be with her again, just not now. “How about we do ittomorrow? I’m getting tired,” he settled on the first answer he could come up with