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Post by tucker alexander caw on Sept 26, 2010 12:40:28 GMT -5
Tucker was staying in the inn above this stupid bar. It was nothing like his own bar, there was no fun drunks or anything of that sorts. Obviously these people weren't as beer happy as the ones that came to his bar back in Paris.
He was watching a conversation between to aurors, silently wondering if either one of them knew Kendra. Obviously she's probably the only auror here from Paris, and probably the prettiest. But of course Tucker was a little biased when it came to that.
He drank his firewhiskey in peace as he turned to two other people having a conversation. They were whispering, and he couldn't make out much but he thought he heard Kendra's name.
He was tempted to ask if they knew if she was seeing anyone, but the thought of that answer made him burn with anger and jealousy. So okay he pushed her away, and yes she had the right to move on. But he wished that just maybe, his list of people after her didn't cause an issue. It was a pretty long list, and nobody on that list made him feel the way Kendra did.
He would never go from Paris to London in search of any of those girls. No, only Kendra. She was the one he would always, always be in love with.
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Post by kendra phoebe mason on Sept 26, 2010 13:43:50 GMT -5
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Post by tucker alexander caw on Sept 26, 2010 14:20:49 GMT -5
Tucker looked up when he heard the whispering stopped, what he saw explained everything. It was Kendra, as beautiful as she ever could of been. He was not expecting to see her here of all places.
He was planning on going to see her tomorrow, but here she was. That, at least, saved him having to go anywhere the next day. "Kendra," he said in his silky, thickly accented voice.
She was just as beautiful as he remembered if not more beautiful. "I didn't expect to see you, though this is a pleasure indeed."
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Post by kendra phoebe mason on Sept 26, 2010 16:54:18 GMT -5
[/b] she said, keeping a straight face. Gah, she wanted to punch him and kiss him at the same time "Why are you doing this, Tucker?"[/ul][/size]
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Post by tucker alexander caw on Sept 26, 2010 17:33:59 GMT -5
Tucker wasn't going to lie to Kendra, well or to anyone. If someone asked him what he was doing, even if it was stealing, he'd tell them and accept the consequences. "I've came here for you Kendra. I've missed you and I've thought about it, and I'd deal with your job if I could hold you in my arms again," he said with a slight smile on his lips. He wouldn't of broken it off if he knew that he'd known how it would feel not having her.
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Post by kendra phoebe mason on Sept 26, 2010 17:41:54 GMT -5
[/b] she said softly, looking towards him with a small frown across her lips "You made me choose between you and my career. Why should I believe you wouldn't do it again?" she asked him. Why did he have to make things so difficult, her emotions and feelings were all jumbled and she was confused. She hated this so much, but as she kept looking across the table at him, all of those old feelings were slowly coming to her, even as much as she was resisting them.[/ul][/size]
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Post by tucker alexander caw on Sept 26, 2010 17:45:00 GMT -5
Tucker felt a pull to his lips but forced himself not to smile. "Because Kendra, I've realized how lonely I am with out you. I love you Kendra and I'm never going to find that again." He sighed,"And you can trust me. I've dated many people in search of what I had with you and each failed because I was afraid they'd leave me so I ended it."
His smile fell from his face,"Would you like to know the real reason I made you choose?"
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Post by kendra phoebe mason on Sept 26, 2010 21:39:03 GMT -5
[/b] she said, trying to keep her voice calm and the pain she was feeling from her voice. She let out a small sigh as she looked away from him to stare down at the table instead "Why did you make me choose, Tucker?"[/ul][/size]
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Post by tucker alexander caw on Sept 27, 2010 16:16:11 GMT -5
Now Tucker could not help but smile at her words. Ah, Kendra understood nothing about him. Nothing at all. 'She used too,' he thought to himself. "Yes, I know, but I have a good explanation for that Kendra."
He never really told many people this story, not even Kendra after all the years he knew her and all the years he loved her. But he wasn't planning on telling her the full story about all the things that he found out as a kid.
"I made you choose with the understanding that you wouldn't choose me because well. I was pushing you away, the same as anyone else I've dated." He stopped for a minute, letting that sink in before he finished explaining. He drank the last bit of the firewhiskey in front of him before continuing. He felt calmer, and knew that these next words would now be easier to say.
"But with you I didn't want to, so I forced myself to believe I hated your job so you would leave me. So I wouldn't have to force myself and break up with you. Because I know now that I will always love you."
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Post by kendra phoebe mason on Sept 27, 2010 17:24:28 GMT -5
[/b] she said softly, as she kept her eyes locked with him, still trying hard to not show her pain "I've been in love with you since our seventh year of schooling. And in a matter of seconds, you decided you wanted to end it because you believed in something that wasn't true." Kendra swallowed a lump in her throat "I may have loved my job, but I had loved you more. I was protecting us, our friends and family and our world."[/ul][/size]
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Post by tucker alexander caw on Sept 28, 2010 9:16:37 GMT -5
Tuker's loving smile turned into a frown at Kendra's words. How could she not believe him after all he just told her. After those words he spoke to her, why..why would she say such things about them. He felt the anger at her boil up and his next words spilled out in a soft hiss,"Fine. Leave me like she did." He quickly closed his mouth before anything else could escape him in thes blind rage. How could he say that to someone? The secret's he had kept since he was ten were now slowly boiling up to the surface. But as they came up, he pushed them right back down where they belonged.
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Post by kendra phoebe mason on Sept 28, 2010 21:21:29 GMT -5
[/b] she pointed out, shaking her head some and running a hand a little shaky through her hair as she looked down at the table. But his words rang back through her ears, what had he meant by 'just like she did'. There was a side of her telling her to forget about it and just get up and leave right now and go find James, but she couldn't find it in here. Sighing softly, Kendra looked back up at him "Like who did?"[/ul][/size]
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Post by tucker alexander caw on Sept 29, 2010 11:09:03 GMT -5
Tucker felt his eyes glare over as he stared at her, yes he left her but now here he was. Here to be with her again, but she was saying no. It made him feel, unworthy of love. The same feeling he felt at ten.
Her next question made him bite his tongue, he could taste the copper flavor of his blood poor out and then stop. He swallowed the blood, and as he did so the need to tell her who went right along with it. "No one of importance Kendra."
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Post by kendra phoebe mason on Sept 29, 2010 12:48:32 GMT -5
[/b] she laughed a bit, but no humor was found within it "You are impossible anymore, Tucker. Why couldn't you of just stayed in Paris? You couldn't possibly understand the pain I went through that night you made me choose. Jesus, I had it in my head that you were going to propose to me, but instead you dumped me." Kendra was finding it hard to keep the pain from her eyes and features and could feel that burn in her eyes that warned her tears were forming and wanting to spill over.[/ul][/size]
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Post by tucker alexander caw on Sept 29, 2010 14:06:21 GMT -5
Tucker stared at him, a look of confusion placed on his face. How could he of done that to her? Maybe he didn't deserve her, not after all the things he did. "Don't trust me Kendra. I'll leave you alone, and I'm sorry for hurting you all those month's ago. It hurt me too. Making you choose hurt me more than you would ever really understand."
He stood,"And I'm sorry I can't tell you who the she who left me is. It's a life or death answer. And I love you Kendra, but I can't love you if I'm dead. I'm sorry." He started to walk to the door, but in the two steps he took he looked back. "I love you a lot Kendra. Even if you don't believe it."
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